I didn’t want to go into treatment and I didn’t think I had a problem with alcohol, but I had so many problems coping with life and my family that I wound up in the hospital for an inpatient mental evaluation.
While I was in the hospital, my husband heard about La Via Detox and Transformations Recovery from an acquaintance. Sarah came to see me in the hospital and talked with my husband and myself. My idea was to just have outpatient treatment but my social worker recommend that I begin detox in the transitional housing. I didn’t want to be there at first. I was so uncomfortable during the first IOP meeting because I didn’t want people to know who I am.
Then, during my third IOP session, the topic was Honesty. Without really knowing what I was doing, I raised my hand and said, “My name is Shobie, and I am an alcoholic”. I had never said that out loud before in my life. The group went silent, and then everyone started clapping. Their reaction helped me to realize how closed up I’ve been for so long. I began to get in touch with my feelings of anger and denial that day. Somehow I was able to express and process those feelings so that they don’t feel like they are going to rule my life anymore.
The staff and the other clients in the program have been so wonderful. I have never felt like an outsider and everyone is so happy to help me learn new coping skills.
Tomorrow I am 30 days sober. A friend from the IOP program brought me a plant that will grow taller than I am, so that I can watch it grow along with me.
I have six weeks left in the IOP program and I am looking forward to new activities for the first time in years. When the program is finished, I want to take classes at my daughter’s school a few nights a week so that I can broaden my interests and learn healthy activities to enjoy with my family instead of drinking and arguing.
I am so grateful to my husband for finding this program. It is the best thing that could have ever happened to me and my family. Thanks for giving me a new way to live.